? Thursday, October 26, 2006?

STILL, it is not meant to be mine. i am trying to be strong, and i know i haf to. Dont ever try to console me, cos i know i could do a better job =) suddenly i juz feel so lost, dun ask me why. Those who know will know, those who don't , i dont want to talk abt it anymore too. The first time i feel i lost someone so badly, i guess NONE of euu out thr know how i feel like. DONT TELL ME YOU DO!!! i know euu dont. =) now i realli feel nothing at all. althou i always wish i could drink all i wan, smoke all i care, chiong like mad. i guess i can do that now. How i wish i can go for party, drink and hung up. i guess that is what i need badly now. i will nv forget him, he will always be my 1st jerome. For time being, i will juz forcus on my career and not think of any other at the moment.

Let me DRINK. And HUNG UP.
THATS WHAT I WAN.

iloveahxiang @ 12:34 AM