? Saturday, May 06, 2006?

Today i didnt go anywhere. went staright home after work as baby got duty to do. haiz, its not easy being a police. =)
then today i do closing, short of $1.20 sia. so panic sia me. then went to smoke with michelle then head home liao. then went i reach home. marmie didnt talk to me. i know why. haix. then i went to change then she finally talk to me, say the doctor sae Daddy can oly live for the next 5 yrs. haiz. i dont know what to do. then i feel so guilty. cos i didnt went home last night, i went to baby hse to sleep. then she say daddy cannot sleep, then he even smoke. oh gosh!! my heart drop to the toe. i feel so bad. i didnt want him to worry one. i didnt!! and i don meant to. so i told myself, i muz real cherish everything i haf with him now. i haf oly one father, i dont wan to lose him. althou i always scolded him in the past, but deep down in my heart, i love him so much one. sigh**

what more can i do??
no mood to blog anymore.


will be gone____**

iloveahxiang @ 12:07 AM